Exhaustion

 I was all geared up yesterday to write a piece to celebrate Squirrel Appreciation Day, but coming home from work I just felt completely exhausted. I know that writing tends to be my release, especially of late, but I couldn't even get my thoughts to be clear enough to write. 

I am sure that many writers often get a sense of overwhelm and I guess I had found myself in that sort of situation. My job is a rewarding, but often tiring one and adding the fact that my husband has been out the last few evenings, I found myself tackling the housework and two very chatty, demanding girls (plus a dog for good measure!) I got myself into the seemingly endless cycle of washing, sorting meals and organising ahead of another day of work. 

Those who know me well know that I can be a total stress head, although this has changed over the last year or so where I have been learning more about mental health and mindfulness. It has changed my perspective of many things and I do feel I have somewhat mellowed and accept my inner feelings more deeply. This does not always however come to fruition and I did have to remind myself to stop last night.....hence why I chose the television over writing!

I find it kind of humorous that I was complaining the other day about vivid dreams and now I find myself hitting a bit of a brick wall when it comes to my writing (hence today's rambling!) I guess there is a part of me who feels a little unsettled at the moment.....like I know something is on the verge of happening but I am not sure what!!! I think I must be on a little bit of a come down after the excitement of the weekend, when a piece of poetry I had written was published in the local football teams match programme! 

being me, I have have done a little research on what may be happening, and there is such as thing as writers burnout.....who knew! One way suggested to get over a writing slump is just to sit and write solidly for 10-15 mins.....so that is what I am doing, whilst plugged into my airbuds listening to some of my favourite tunes. saying that though, my playlist is on random and a lot of the more depressing songs are being played!! 

Whatever this feeling is, I am sure it will ease at some point. I am confident that whatever is looming that I am sensing will manifest itself and things will become clearer. Hopefully, this will get me back on track to a good writing flow again. I have been enjoying this abundance of creativity and I certainly do not want to stop!